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by Rokjox » Tue Sep 22, 2015 1:03 am
Don't let that "not the same as them" thing bother you too much... "They" are called "Neurotypical" and believe me, they ain't so fucking hot for all their "social skills". THEY need social skills because they cannot handle the complexity of the world without help, so they get all social. Its their survival mechanism. "They" spend a lot of time making a small social psychology deviance into a big miserable deal. The funny thing is, once the people with these kind of issues actually grow up, we realize that we have large advantage over the "neurotypical" types. We often discover that we have become "resistant" to the therapy and all the bullshit. We don't WANT to change just for getting along with the NT's. We begin to understand that "WE" have something better... or at least as good.
Given the advantages I get from my mindset, I have become reasonably happy to know that I will never really understand what the emotional fuss is all about... I find that there are PLENTY of people who understand that a guy who can fix anything and understand damn near anything mechanical or physical is not gonna act exactly like an airhead cocktail waitress who makes a living off'n her mouth and her ability to "get along". Or a big mouth politician or an "insurance salesman" (con artist) or anyone else who makes their livelyhood off'n their mouths. Airline stewards, bartenders, ticket takers and all the other professional talking heads. I will never be a good coach or a cheerleader. No especial empathy, I suppose.
Because of my mindset, I tend to be a little more fair than average, I think. I sure as hell know I treat women better than the "average guy". Even women I don't like. I don't seem to be as in thrall to drugs and alcohol either... my mindset seems to give me a stabilizing feel for when I should just hold back.
BITD when I was in public school, I let people tell me there was "something" a little odd about me, perhaps. At this point in my life, I have become convinced that its not me, its the piss poor state of what passes for "average intelligence" in the human race. Its the low level of "average" that is truly a shame. It ain't me thats wrong, undercapacity and under achieving, it's that "normal" is pretty damn pathetic.
God willing, we MAY become smart, just before we become extinct. One or the other, we cannot continue like this.
I may have NPD, but I can't help but feel that "average" is pretty damn underperforming on a scale from damn stupid to reasonably competent. I find it HARD to find anybody who is actually competent in anything but a TINY field of endeavor.
So buck up, you GOTTA be better than average, it appears you can type with more than two fingers.
If you can't fix your car, "break" into a locked house without busting anything or fix your computer; If you can't use hand tools, ride a horse, cook, handle a pair of skis, a rifle, drive a car or truck, splint a bone, or fight your way out of a bar, you ain't worth much in a complex society. LOTS of helpless people survive by getting others to do all that shit for them, usually by paying them money or offering sexual favors, etc.
In the end, the Neurotypicals seldom make big changes, big discoveries. They evolve existing things at best. It's the Neurodiverse that seem to make the big revolutionary advances.
I prefer to learn how to do all that shit myself. I prefer being self-reliant in almost everything. I am better off if I do it ALL myself, in the end. Let the "friendly people" glad hand each other until the world stops spinning. I am the guy they come to when they can't do something. they actually NEED me when the shit hits the fan. I just wish "they" learned it before all hell breaks loose. I hate being in a rush.